Girl drama diaries

Whoo! I haven't posted on this blog in a while. In fact, I just had my 14th birthday. Things have been wild, things have totally changed throughout my life and I've got a lot to update, I should probably start getting on Girl Drama Diaries more often because venting here has always been better than bottling up my emotions, and hoping my problems would go away soon. I've been doing Girl drama diaries videos altogether since I was 9, but I've been doing them on here since I was 10. So, happy 5 year anniversiary to Girl drama diaries itself! And 4 year to this blog and YouTube channel. So, it's currently the 2017-2018 school year of co-op, I've stopped having a huge crush on Isaiah, and it has went down to a little crush. Why? Because I got sick of him ignoring me all the time and not giving a fuck, anyways I found a liking in someone else, and now I've got a boyfriend. I was done playing kid games with Isaiah, cause I knew what he was trying to fucking do. Any...

So this girl, she's about 16 now, and I'm almost 14. She's been bullying me for a whole year, and it's over a boy. I had this boyfriend named Dylan, and he's 18, but I dated him back when he was 16 and I was 12. So, no fucking judging. I've gotten enough of that from people....Dylan and Nicole are both horrible people who manipulate others together and create drama for no good reason. As you'll see on May's blog, Nicole bullied me and didn't admit it because she wants to look like a sweet little angel when in reality, SHE'S the bully. Don't believe any of her lies, she literally lies about me on a daily basis to many people on Hangouts and elsewhere. She stole Dylan from me back in September 2016, and told me to kill myself when she knew I was depressed, I was very fucking pissed off. Not only was she supposed to be my friend, but she ditched me by bullying me and making me cry and cut for days, THEN HAD THE NERVE TO SAY I WAS THE HORRIBLE PE...

Hey guys!! So I know I haven't posted in quite some time. I've been very busy over the Summer, I even ended up taking a vacation to Florida (which is a wish come true!!) and I've been enjoying myself so far. I'm glad to be turning 14 this November, (time flies!) When I made my first blog post on here I was 10 years old, so it really is a miracle! So some of you know, how....well I've been going through shit at co-op in the past, and my crush there is now 18 years old. So things ain't so easy...and my fear of going back in fear things might be worse than last year, is getting worse. I know I shouldn't be feeling scared, but of course my anxiety always gets the best of me. I've been having constant nightmares that I get rejected by Isaiah in my dreams, and I've even had people tell me I deserve rejection and that I'm ugly af. (Which fuck it, I'm not as ugly as some of these people make me out to be) and it really scares me of the things that co...

So, school is out for the Summer! I'm looking forward to Summer, no school, and hopefully no stress. Planning on inviting Isaiah and Alex at my house so they can meet each other for the first time, then go to San Marcos, and then go to Florida. Hopefully Summer 2017 will be a blast and I won't have to worry about anything this year. I'm going into 8th grade, which is amazing because it's only one more year left of shitty ass middle school, but I also don't like that I have to deal with one more year of middle school because I've been bullied for my age SO MANY times. I can't wait for high school when everything is BETTER. Damn life really does suck for a 13 year old, glad I'm turning 14 soon. Anyway, hope to have a good Summer, and everyone else out there. *sigh* UGHHHH ONE MORE YEAR OF MIDDLELEEE SHCOOOL.L

Okay, so I know that bullying is common, but I'm really fed up with the bullies who lie their way out of trouble, whenever I confront them. Not all of my bullies have played the innocent card, but most of them have because people nowadays don't like to admit they've bullied someone and they've messed up. Ever since I learned how to stand up for myself, people have been in denial that they're messing with me. This started at around 10 years old, when I had gotten a Google+ so I could do things as innocent as making Barbie videos, LPS videos, and singing videos. The problem is, is that I barely knew how to sing at the time, and I was bullied for it. People would comment hate on my channel like "You're such a terrible singer" and "Your videos suck" and "Go kill yourself you ugly piece of sh*t" and at the time I was a child, so my only reaction would be anger and I would stand up for myself, not knowing that I should've just deleted...

See, I've always been told growing up, when I would tell my grandma I was being bullied, or told my friends I was being bullied I would usually get slapped in the face with this one response "Just ignore it". So of course, the first time I was told that I thought it would work. When I was being picked on in 3rd grade, this one boy in art class named "Douglas" would always try to get my attention my insulting my favorite color, animal, or food and I tried to ignore it by not paying any attention to it whatsoever and keep coloring on my piece of paper, but he kept going on and on before I finally lost it and told him to shut up. Ignoring isn't really easy, especially for people with anger issues like me. It's pretty much an old wives tale that ignoring any kind of bullying whether it's in school, at a sports team, in dance class, at some kind of co-op, or anywhere where there are other kids your age that it somehow works, and telling your children just...

So recently, I've been discussing A LOT how this Iris girl had issues with me, well thankfully they're finally resolved. But there's a catch. Isaiah just turned 18, which really sucks and that means I'm gonna get judged EVEN MORE for having a crush on him! Yay me! (Sarcasm). My life doesn't seem to be getting that much better and I really hope it does soon, see Iris is still talking to me and being cool and everything but sometimes her little friend group doesn't seem to include me all the time. Here's a list of things her friends are doing that are a little bit strange. Talking to me, acting friendly and all cool but when it comes time for us all to do something together I get ignored or left out. Saying they're gonna do something, but not actually doing it. Allegra said she was gonna meet with me at the lazy river so we could hangout together, and I waited there for her for like 10 minutes before finally giving up and going back over to the m...

Okay, so this is something that has been really getting on my nerves lately, so I've seen lots of people complain how "13 isn't even a teenage year, it's still a pre-teen" BULLSHIT!!!! So people say how 13-year-olds aren't mature enough yet, so they're not considered teens but just because they're younger teenagers doesn't mean THEY AREN'T teenagers, because they're just getting started on their teenage years. I don't believe 13 is still ranged in a five year old fucking range, because by the time I was 11, my childhood had pretty much ended. It had nothing to do with "trying" to grow up, or doing things that weren't appropriate for my age, my childhood just naturally ended and I lost a lot of interest in stuffed animals, playing on a playground, or playing with dolls, I couldn't do it I'd have to force myself to do it, by the time I was 12 I was ready to become a teenager because I was sick of being stuck in the m...

Hey guys, it's Helena here..I'm back with some more news/info. So, you all know I have a crush on Isaiah LIKE CRAZY...And that I hate that I'm only 13 whilst he's 17. Well, not only is this your "typical crush" it's a lot more than that, Isaiah has a little sister and she's like 11-12 years old, she's cute, sweet, has black short hair and wears it in a headband sometimes, but she also seems to ignore me...Me and her used to be good friends when I first joined co-op, but now things have seriously changed. Since the co-op moved to a new church the new school year, things just aren't as fun as they used to be because the drama class room, has turned into the gym area....and drama class is one of the few classes I even have with Isaiah. Then there's the shocking fact Isaiah's little sister...let's call her Iris. Iris has a BEST friend named Allie, and she has a ton of other friends including a girl named Lily, Allegra, Caroline, and a l...

Hey guys, it's Helena again, and I just thought I'd give you all an update about how I'm doing and this time it's about my intense crush on this 17 year old boy from my co-op whose extremely sweet and cute I just can't seem to get his attention half the time, I know he's a little old by a year lol but I can't help it honestly, my depression has gotten the best of me and I've been self harming a lot lately The day before co-op last week started I had a breakdown in front of the computer cause I was literally so scared about how co-op would go for me, as it was the week after I got a pic with Isaiah, and 2 weeks after I attempted to ask him out. The furthest I've gone with Isaiah was a hug and that's about it. Co-op went okay, but I had a very hard time getting Isaiah to notice me, he DID however sit with me at lunch but that's about it. In drama, he devoted all his attention to this Angelika girl who was older than me by two years. *Si...

So it's been at least a week I'd say, of Lexis and her cyberbullying. And She's still going around spreading nasty rumors about my friend Caroline, my sister Chloe, and my MOM! She found images of Veronika Black claiming my mom was posing as this lady when those weren't even images of my mom those were images of an Australian model!!! Yolo swagg (aka Lexis Armstrong) needs to seriously back up and find better things to do with her fucking life! I'm so sick of it. Zark and Micheal even believe all the lies which is worse. Lexis still hasn't fucking stopped, and I've already blocked her several times and and called this drama off but apparently enough just isn't enough for her! Like seriously. Sorry if I was being racist while I was TOO MAD TO EVEN THINK, but that's not even DAMN near as bad as you fucking insulting someone's dead sister! Like SERIOUSLY GET A GRIP PEOPLE! My mom (woman in the pink sweater) is more caring than any other mom ...

Okay, so drama is getting worse. I've gotten a few blogs putten up about me now and they're still fucking insulting my dead sister  +lps legit  went and talked shit with her blog posting posting a bunch of lies about me, and I block people because I don't have time for bullying, what the FTF you talkin Bout! And leave my sisters the hell out of this! Lexis indeed HAS been bullying me, but she's spreading nonstop rumors calling my friends and I racist we didn't do a single thing! She started it by insulting my dead sister and now people are thinking that I'm lying but I really do have a fucking dead sister! Like you never treat someone with a dead sister like this, and yes her picture WAS FOUND on google because my dad had it up on his website if she spreads any rumors just don't believe her be on the lookout for  +Lexis Armstrong  everything she says is a literal LIE! And her screenshots are fake. And she called me a white cracker, so I had all rights ...

So this 15 year old girl named Lexis Armstrong has been harassing me and spreading rumors about me, and she thought I was lying because she found one of the pictures on a website. and now she just won't quit spreading lies and telling people about me, I'm so sick of it honestly if you run into   +Lexis Armstrong  block her right away. I already have depression, and don't have time for this bull. Oh and as for you  +lps legit  have fun with your lesbian girlfriend that you chose to take sides on with >:-(

Okay so, ever since I was 11 I have been going through a rough patch with Dylan and his little friends. And it's been stressing me out a LOT and I mean a LOT....Back in July 2015 Madison Trawick and I got in an argument with her because she assumed I was "Jealous" when in reality, I was mad that she tried to kill my boyfriend (at the time) with a knife! So I told Dylan to stay away from her cause clearly that girl was crazy, he already told me she flirted with him a lot and now she's tryna kill him in his sleep? No way! I told him to tell his parents but he refused so Madison clearly got away with attempted murder. But, regardless that I was only trying to protect Dylan, Madison Facebook messaged me and said things like "You're ugly, who do you think you are? I'll hang with Dylan if I want to" and I got so mad that this girl that tried to do bad things with my boyfriend had the nerve to just talk to me like that! So I fired back and then an argum...