Girl drama diaries: "Being left out"

So recently, I've been discussing A LOT how this Iris girl had issues with me, well thankfully they're finally resolved. But there's a catch. Isaiah just turned 18, which really sucks and that means I'm gonna get judged EVEN MORE for having a crush on him! Yay me! (Sarcasm). My life doesn't seem to be getting that much better and I really hope it does soon, see Iris is still talking to me and being cool and everything but sometimes her little friend group doesn't seem to include me all the time. Here's a list of things her friends are doing that are a little bit strange.

• Talking to me, acting friendly and all cool but when it comes time for us all to do something together I get ignored or left out.

• Saying they're gonna do something, but not actually doing it. Allegra said she was gonna meet with me at the lazy river so we could hangout together, and I waited there for her for like 10 minutes before finally giving up and going back over to the main swim area of the Moody Gardens thing. She was acting totally normal as if she wasn't supposed to meet me over there when she specfically said that was what she was gonna do, and she looked at me a few times but with some kind of strange glare.

• When I'm just lingering around, they don't even say anything. They see me lingering around in the pool, but don't say a word and continue playing with each other. But if any other of the girls were to be lingering around they'd get their attention real fast.

And this is just what REALLY gets me. The girls were Caroline, Allyson, and Allegra. Iris couldn't make it to the Moody Gardens event because her family was sick, that meant Isaiah couldn't come either, Caroline is the one who barely even talks to me and she was the girl Iris whispered something into her ear about me, right in front of me too. They're all just a bunch of 11-12 year olds, but they're friends with Isaiah's sister so that's mainly why it matters to me. But last week, on Saturday there was this co-op party where people from co-op would come to have water gun fights, and shaving cream wars and apparently we were told things were supposed to get dirty but I only showed up in a T-shirt and some stretch pants so I had no idea I was gonna get drenched in water, and had known I should've brought some kind of swimsuit, but whatever. That's not the point. The point is, I had shown up and Isaiah was just pulling into the driveway of the co-op party house, and Isaiah was in some swim trunks, flip flops, and a shirt. I'll have you know, this is the first time I had EVER seen him in flip flops. We were filling up our water balloons and getting our water guns pumped up, and the water gun war begun, I was at first shooting Isaiah back and forth with spray bottles and waterguns, then I joined his team when he kept almost getting seriously hurt by the other boys when they weren't looking where they were throwing the soccer balls, and because Courtney my friend was helping Isaiah too. Soon, the shaving cream war began and I had been spraying people with my full up can of shaving cream, when I came across Isaiah I sprayed him with some and asked if he could chase me, and he kinda smiled and just stood there for some reason, I was thinking "Okay, maybe he doesn't really chase people" But no...because Caroline came up to Isaiah and sprayed him with some shaving cream and said "I think you need more shaving cream" and then Isaiah said "I think YOU need some more!" And began chasing her around the yard, I kinda thought it was strange how he chased her and not me. But then it happened again, I asked him to chase me again and he just stood there and smiled at me, didn't chase me though. When Allyson sprayed him, he chased her too. WTF?! At this point I was pissed and quit the game. I couldn't take it anymore, I was becoming really uncomfortable because it was dark outside at this point and I was cold in my drenched T-shirt and stretch pants, so when we washed the shaving cream off of ourselves, I went upstairs to go and change, and boy the wait to get changed took forever. I changed into my outfit, and went home. It still bothers me a week later how this happened, even worse because Courtney got chased by Isaiah too and had her hands put behind her back so Isaiah could rub shaving cream all in her hair. UGH. Unfair. I really wish my life could just get better already.