Bullies Who Act As Victims
Okay, so I know that bullying is common, but I'm really fed up with the bullies who lie their way out of trouble, whenever I confront them. Not all of my bullies have played the innocent card, but most of them have because people nowadays don't like to admit they've bullied someone and they've messed up. Ever since I learned how to stand up for myself, people have been in denial that they're messing with me. This started at around 10 years old, when I had gotten a Google+ so I could do things as innocent as making Barbie videos, LPS videos, and singing videos. The problem is, is that I barely knew how to sing at the time, and I was bullied for it. People would comment hate on my channel like "You're such a terrible singer" and "Your videos suck" and "Go kill yourself you ugly piece of sh*t" and at the time I was a child, so my only reaction would be anger and I would stand up for myself, not knowing that I should've just deleted the comments and moved on, but I decided to tell them off, and soon after an argument would break out, and I would confront the person about bullying me, this is when they started turning the tables on me and saying "I'm not bullying you, you're bullying me!" But how?? I wondered because this was unusual to me that I was being accused of something they did to me, I thought "They're the ones who made the comment" "They're the ones who started the argument" and to top it off, I didn't even say anything in response to them, as what they started to say as bad as they were saying to me.
The real deal, began with my first online female friend, Miranda. Who was 9 years old, just a year younger than me at the time. We met on hangouts, we would chat on hangouts, video call, and soon we started phone calling everyday. We knew a lot about each other, and we were best friends. Until, she started becoming a bit...abusive...During one of our phone calls, she began going on and on about how horrible my YouTube videos were, and how she was leaving dislikes on them for no reason. Like one of my at the time Barbie videos, she was criticizing and disliking the videos, instead of giving me good advice for how I should do my videos, she just began berating me for it. As I had known she was supposed to be my friend, I just tried to brush it off and hope she would change the way she was acting to me. But she didn't. It soon began to bother me how she started becoming bossy and rude and I let her get away with it, so I finally decided to stick up for myself and once I did, all hell broke lose. She started getting angry at me, and asking why I was being so rude, I told her she was being rude to me relentless times, and I let her get away with it and that I was only standing up for what's right. She began to berate me even more, and accuse ME of bullying HER, this was ridiculous and I told her she was the bully, and we went on and on about who was the bully and who wasn't the bully. It got to the point I had to block her, block her number, and be done with her. She kept coming back, but the friendship finally officially ended in August of 2014.
It didn't stop there though. I had gone through more battles with people who randomly got on hangouts and started calling me names, and as soon as I would stand up for myself I would get called a bully. Ridiculous. Most of the time, I was dealing with other immature 10 year olds.
About a full year later, when I was 11 years old, I had this online boyfriend named "Dylan" who was 4 years older than me, so he was 15 years old at the time. I would get judged for the age difference, but I had known him prior before I even thought of a relationship, the issue was that he lived all the way in Florida, I live in Texas. Now before you say "Oh my gawddd! It's the internet he could be a old man for all you know!" I knew he was a real guy because I would video call him everyday, and got to see his legit face on camera, so he wasn't fake. Anyways, so with the long distance thing, that prevented him from being able to see me in real life, which I had really really wanted. We tried to come see each other, (with our parents involved) in June of 2015, at my dance performance. Sadly, he couldn't come because he claimed to have been really really busy so that was ruined. I was really upset when I found out he couldn't come, and I invited my two friends I knew in real life to come, and they couldn't come because they were busy too. So my plans were basically ruined, and I cried for hours when I found out nobody could come. I asked Dylan if pherhaps we could see each other in July or August, and his response was "We'll see" so I gave it no second thought after that. When the end of July rolled around, Dylan still wasn't sure about being able to come see me or not and he had introduced me to this girl my age, named "Madison" she knew him in real life, and was a family friend. It started out with a video call, where we said hi and stuff but my feelings quickly escalated when I heard Madison and Dylan playing together in the background, I thought to myself "I wish I was there" and hungup the call because I got too upset. Day after, Dylan started telling me all kinds of bad things about Madison, saying she tried to kill him with a knife in his sleep, saying she was a bully torward other family members, saying she liked to start shit with other people, and the more he said this the more pissed I got about this girl being able to see Dylan in the first place. With the attempted murder thing, I told him to tell his parents, or call the police. He didn't wanna. So I told him to simply stay away from her and his response was "Idk". Well a few hours later, I got a private Facebook message from Madison, telling me all kinds of nasty things and accusing me of being "jealous" of her, so I replied back and told her to leave me alone, and an argument broke out. I confronted her for bullying me, and Dylan and she automatically accused ME of bullying her, when she started the shit and so she began telling her friends all these lies as well. She was telling me to kill myself, and that I was ugly, and a hoe, and she was harassing me with phone calls all so I could answer and she would cuss me out. She threatened violence on me as well, so that's when things really got serious, I was pissed off, she soon got all her friends and family members to gang up on me and tell me all kinds of lying shit that they heard from Madison. Madison was basically spreading rumors about me.
This had caused me to fall into depression, and get suicidal thoughts. Then, sometime in September 2016, I was 12 years old but almost 13 at the time. Dylan was still my boyfriend, but we had been getting into a lot of arguments lately and he didn't seem to care about me as much as he used to, I had this best friend who was 15, named "Nicole" and she was an LPStuber, she plain as day had autism. She had disfunctions in her teeth, and her face. I was best friends with her, and I thought she had my back. But I was wrong. Prior to this, she had bullied me when I was 10 or 11, one day in a group chat. We were friends at this time, and she randomly came into the group chat and started calling me names, and saying I was pathetic, and stupid for whatever reason, and I asked her why she was acting that way, and she kept on with insults. So I stood up for myself, and she called me a bully for that. Even though I only acted in self defense. But when September of 2016 came around, we apologized to each other for the argument and became friends again. Well, Dylan was starting to do things to piss me off and becoming friends with people who bullied me and betrayed me, and I told him to stop. He made excuses as to why he couldn't video call me, and just acted lazy. Whenever I needed him he didn't seem to care anymore, and it would get me really upset. Well this one day, I couldn't take it anymore. I was at co-op (A performing arts program for homeschoolers) and I was in drama class, something happened to piss me off in drama class and that did it for me. I started having a panic attack and fell on the ground hyperventilating and couldn't stop. It got to the point I couldn't walk so a boy named Cameron, and my mom carried me out of the room, an ambulance was called and I was finally calmed down 10 minutes after they arrived and helped me through it. I told Dylan about it, and he didn't give a single flying fuck. He was supposed to be my boyfriend, I was so pissed off. An exact week after that, Dylan told me he was in the hospital because of stress issues, and back issues, and told me it was my fault, and that I needed to be a better girlfriend. I told him I was sorry about how he felt, but I was going through stress related stuff too and I didn't need to be blamed for any of this. It got worse when I went to a group chat, with Justin and Nicole and told them how I felt about Dylan blaming me for himself being in the hospital, and Justin started getting mad and saying I should've felt more sympathy because he was in the hospital, and I told him I couldn't because Dylan never gave a fuck when I was going through stress, but wants me to give a fuck now that he's going through stress and even worse blaming it on me. I had no idea Dylan was in this group hangout, until Nicole popped up on the chat. She started saying "Well it IS your fault Dylan is in the hospital" and I got so mad, that was it for me. I couldn't have my best friend turning on me as well, so I removed her from the chat and she complained about it on private messages. Dylan added her back, and said "WTF" And I got shocked because Dylan was in the chat the whole time, so I removed Dylan and Nicole from the hangout again and Nicole got on and things took a turn for the worst. She private messaged me telling me to go kill myself, and that I was ugly and that nobody likes me. I blocked her after she said that, and I told Dylan about it and he said he would block her. At 10 PM at night, I was about to go to bed when I got a private message from "Sabrina" an adult woman Nicole knows in real life, and she told me Dylan and Nicole were talking shit about me on Facebook messenger, I frantically typed "WHAT?" Send me screenshots! She sent me screenshots of Dylan telling Nicole behind my back that I was "an ugly slut" and I "cheated" on him, which is a complete and utter lie because I NEVER once cheated on him EVER. He was calling me names, and so was Nicole. I was so upset, I started crying and crying. I confronted Dylan about it the next morning, and he basically broke up with me after I found out about it. I was furious, and really depressed. I had remembered I still had Dylan's account on my phone, so I switched over to see what was the meaning behind all this and I found out he had gotten into a relationship with Nicole, and was flirting with her and saying he loved her and I was shocked. He told me he couldn't phone call me or video call me, and I found out the reason why. He was busy video calling this Nicole girl. She was supposed to be my friend, and I couldn't believe this. She even knew I had depression and said and did what she did to me, taking away the one thing that was important to me. Dylan. I confronted her for not only bullying me, but stealing my boyfriend and she wouldn't admit to bullying me at all, in fact she accused me of bullying her (again!) and even convinced Dylan that was the case even though it was not. Nicole began to spread rumors about me, and act all innocent. In early 2017, I found out Dylan lied about being in the hospital for attention. He admitted to me over phone call that it was only so people could feel sorry for him, and so he could get attention and respect from others. And he did that also to make me look bad. Let's just say I'm not very happy about this. Dylan even told me to kill myself, and told me he hoped I would stay depressed because Nicole influenced him to.
What do I think about bullies who play the innocent card? I think they're really pathetic and most likely scared to admit to bullying their victim, because they know they'll get in trouble for doing so so they cover up their mistakes by lying about it. This is starting to become a really common bullying tactic, watch out public schools....
The real deal, began with my first online female friend, Miranda. Who was 9 years old, just a year younger than me at the time. We met on hangouts, we would chat on hangouts, video call, and soon we started phone calling everyday. We knew a lot about each other, and we were best friends. Until, she started becoming a bit...abusive...During one of our phone calls, she began going on and on about how horrible my YouTube videos were, and how she was leaving dislikes on them for no reason. Like one of my at the time Barbie videos, she was criticizing and disliking the videos, instead of giving me good advice for how I should do my videos, she just began berating me for it. As I had known she was supposed to be my friend, I just tried to brush it off and hope she would change the way she was acting to me. But she didn't. It soon began to bother me how she started becoming bossy and rude and I let her get away with it, so I finally decided to stick up for myself and once I did, all hell broke lose. She started getting angry at me, and asking why I was being so rude, I told her she was being rude to me relentless times, and I let her get away with it and that I was only standing up for what's right. She began to berate me even more, and accuse ME of bullying HER, this was ridiculous and I told her she was the bully, and we went on and on about who was the bully and who wasn't the bully. It got to the point I had to block her, block her number, and be done with her. She kept coming back, but the friendship finally officially ended in August of 2014.
It didn't stop there though. I had gone through more battles with people who randomly got on hangouts and started calling me names, and as soon as I would stand up for myself I would get called a bully. Ridiculous. Most of the time, I was dealing with other immature 10 year olds.
About a full year later, when I was 11 years old, I had this online boyfriend named "Dylan" who was 4 years older than me, so he was 15 years old at the time. I would get judged for the age difference, but I had known him prior before I even thought of a relationship, the issue was that he lived all the way in Florida, I live in Texas. Now before you say "Oh my gawddd! It's the internet he could be a old man for all you know!" I knew he was a real guy because I would video call him everyday, and got to see his legit face on camera, so he wasn't fake. Anyways, so with the long distance thing, that prevented him from being able to see me in real life, which I had really really wanted. We tried to come see each other, (with our parents involved) in June of 2015, at my dance performance. Sadly, he couldn't come because he claimed to have been really really busy so that was ruined. I was really upset when I found out he couldn't come, and I invited my two friends I knew in real life to come, and they couldn't come because they were busy too. So my plans were basically ruined, and I cried for hours when I found out nobody could come. I asked Dylan if pherhaps we could see each other in July or August, and his response was "We'll see" so I gave it no second thought after that. When the end of July rolled around, Dylan still wasn't sure about being able to come see me or not and he had introduced me to this girl my age, named "Madison" she knew him in real life, and was a family friend. It started out with a video call, where we said hi and stuff but my feelings quickly escalated when I heard Madison and Dylan playing together in the background, I thought to myself "I wish I was there" and hungup the call because I got too upset. Day after, Dylan started telling me all kinds of bad things about Madison, saying she tried to kill him with a knife in his sleep, saying she was a bully torward other family members, saying she liked to start shit with other people, and the more he said this the more pissed I got about this girl being able to see Dylan in the first place. With the attempted murder thing, I told him to tell his parents, or call the police. He didn't wanna. So I told him to simply stay away from her and his response was "Idk". Well a few hours later, I got a private Facebook message from Madison, telling me all kinds of nasty things and accusing me of being "jealous" of her, so I replied back and told her to leave me alone, and an argument broke out. I confronted her for bullying me, and Dylan and she automatically accused ME of bullying her, when she started the shit and so she began telling her friends all these lies as well. She was telling me to kill myself, and that I was ugly, and a hoe, and she was harassing me with phone calls all so I could answer and she would cuss me out. She threatened violence on me as well, so that's when things really got serious, I was pissed off, she soon got all her friends and family members to gang up on me and tell me all kinds of lying shit that they heard from Madison. Madison was basically spreading rumors about me.
This had caused me to fall into depression, and get suicidal thoughts. Then, sometime in September 2016, I was 12 years old but almost 13 at the time. Dylan was still my boyfriend, but we had been getting into a lot of arguments lately and he didn't seem to care about me as much as he used to, I had this best friend who was 15, named "Nicole" and she was an LPStuber, she plain as day had autism. She had disfunctions in her teeth, and her face. I was best friends with her, and I thought she had my back. But I was wrong. Prior to this, she had bullied me when I was 10 or 11, one day in a group chat. We were friends at this time, and she randomly came into the group chat and started calling me names, and saying I was pathetic, and stupid for whatever reason, and I asked her why she was acting that way, and she kept on with insults. So I stood up for myself, and she called me a bully for that. Even though I only acted in self defense. But when September of 2016 came around, we apologized to each other for the argument and became friends again. Well, Dylan was starting to do things to piss me off and becoming friends with people who bullied me and betrayed me, and I told him to stop. He made excuses as to why he couldn't video call me, and just acted lazy. Whenever I needed him he didn't seem to care anymore, and it would get me really upset. Well this one day, I couldn't take it anymore. I was at co-op (A performing arts program for homeschoolers) and I was in drama class, something happened to piss me off in drama class and that did it for me. I started having a panic attack and fell on the ground hyperventilating and couldn't stop. It got to the point I couldn't walk so a boy named Cameron, and my mom carried me out of the room, an ambulance was called and I was finally calmed down 10 minutes after they arrived and helped me through it. I told Dylan about it, and he didn't give a single flying fuck. He was supposed to be my boyfriend, I was so pissed off. An exact week after that, Dylan told me he was in the hospital because of stress issues, and back issues, and told me it was my fault, and that I needed to be a better girlfriend. I told him I was sorry about how he felt, but I was going through stress related stuff too and I didn't need to be blamed for any of this. It got worse when I went to a group chat, with Justin and Nicole and told them how I felt about Dylan blaming me for himself being in the hospital, and Justin started getting mad and saying I should've felt more sympathy because he was in the hospital, and I told him I couldn't because Dylan never gave a fuck when I was going through stress, but wants me to give a fuck now that he's going through stress and even worse blaming it on me. I had no idea Dylan was in this group hangout, until Nicole popped up on the chat. She started saying "Well it IS your fault Dylan is in the hospital" and I got so mad, that was it for me. I couldn't have my best friend turning on me as well, so I removed her from the chat and she complained about it on private messages. Dylan added her back, and said "WTF" And I got shocked because Dylan was in the chat the whole time, so I removed Dylan and Nicole from the hangout again and Nicole got on and things took a turn for the worst. She private messaged me telling me to go kill myself, and that I was ugly and that nobody likes me. I blocked her after she said that, and I told Dylan about it and he said he would block her. At 10 PM at night, I was about to go to bed when I got a private message from "Sabrina" an adult woman Nicole knows in real life, and she told me Dylan and Nicole were talking shit about me on Facebook messenger, I frantically typed "WHAT?" Send me screenshots! She sent me screenshots of Dylan telling Nicole behind my back that I was "an ugly slut" and I "cheated" on him, which is a complete and utter lie because I NEVER once cheated on him EVER. He was calling me names, and so was Nicole. I was so upset, I started crying and crying. I confronted Dylan about it the next morning, and he basically broke up with me after I found out about it. I was furious, and really depressed. I had remembered I still had Dylan's account on my phone, so I switched over to see what was the meaning behind all this and I found out he had gotten into a relationship with Nicole, and was flirting with her and saying he loved her and I was shocked. He told me he couldn't phone call me or video call me, and I found out the reason why. He was busy video calling this Nicole girl. She was supposed to be my friend, and I couldn't believe this. She even knew I had depression and said and did what she did to me, taking away the one thing that was important to me. Dylan. I confronted her for not only bullying me, but stealing my boyfriend and she wouldn't admit to bullying me at all, in fact she accused me of bullying her (again!) and even convinced Dylan that was the case even though it was not. Nicole began to spread rumors about me, and act all innocent. In early 2017, I found out Dylan lied about being in the hospital for attention. He admitted to me over phone call that it was only so people could feel sorry for him, and so he could get attention and respect from others. And he did that also to make me look bad. Let's just say I'm not very happy about this. Dylan even told me to kill myself, and told me he hoped I would stay depressed because Nicole influenced him to.
What do I think about bullies who play the innocent card? I think they're really pathetic and most likely scared to admit to bullying their victim, because they know they'll get in trouble for doing so so they cover up their mistakes by lying about it. This is starting to become a really common bullying tactic, watch out public schools....
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