Girl drama diaries

Okay, so I know that bullying is common, but I'm really fed up with the bullies who lie their way out of trouble, whenever I confront them. Not all of my bullies have played the innocent card, but most of them have because people nowadays don't like to admit they've bullied someone and they've messed up. Ever since I learned how to stand up for myself, people have been in denial that they're messing with me. This started at around 10 years old, when I had gotten a Google+ so I could do things as innocent as making Barbie videos, LPS videos, and singing videos. The problem is, is that I barely knew how to sing at the time, and I was bullied for it. People would comment hate on my channel like "You're such a terrible singer" and "Your videos suck" and "Go kill yourself you ugly piece of sh*t" and at the time I was a child, so my only reaction would be anger and I would stand up for myself, not knowing that I should've just deleted...

See, I've always been told growing up, when I would tell my grandma I was being bullied, or told my friends I was being bullied I would usually get slapped in the face with this one response "Just ignore it". So of course, the first time I was told that I thought it would work. When I was being picked on in 3rd grade, this one boy in art class named "Douglas" would always try to get my attention my insulting my favorite color, animal, or food and I tried to ignore it by not paying any attention to it whatsoever and keep coloring on my piece of paper, but he kept going on and on before I finally lost it and told him to shut up. Ignoring isn't really easy, especially for people with anger issues like me. It's pretty much an old wives tale that ignoring any kind of bullying whether it's in school, at a sports team, in dance class, at some kind of co-op, or anywhere where there are other kids your age that it somehow works, and telling your children just...

So recently, I've been discussing A LOT how this Iris girl had issues with me, well thankfully they're finally resolved. But there's a catch. Isaiah just turned 18, which really sucks and that means I'm gonna get judged EVEN MORE for having a crush on him! Yay me! (Sarcasm). My life doesn't seem to be getting that much better and I really hope it does soon, see Iris is still talking to me and being cool and everything but sometimes her little friend group doesn't seem to include me all the time. Here's a list of things her friends are doing that are a little bit strange. Talking to me, acting friendly and all cool but when it comes time for us all to do something together I get ignored or left out. Saying they're gonna do something, but not actually doing it. Allegra said she was gonna meet with me at the lazy river so we could hangout together, and I waited there for her for like 10 minutes before finally giving up and going back over to the m...